As lucky as I feel at times, it is sometimes hard to keep my spirits up. My spirits would be better if I was getting paid for what I do, and I had to work less hard. Both, together, are discouraging. And I do wonder if the situation is ever going to change, and if in the future others will be able to step in and run the show.

I am also discouraged because right now the weather is good and I am not out on my horses enjoying it.

Tonight, Pete and I did get out for a ride – he rode Tyra and I rode Raudi. Raudi was more focused on getting grass than she was in paying attention to me. This is understandable – right now the new grass is very lush and green – so of course, she’s going to go for what she can. Hrimmi would be worse, Tyra better. If I do take Hrimmi for a ride, it’s going to be on the road.

“If” is the operative word. There seems to be very little time to ride, much less do agility.

I haven’t even had time to finish taking out the raspberry canes.

I at times think that I should literally throw my hands up and walk away from this project. I could never do this though, and I’m not sure why.

I just need to find a few people who are as committed to this project as I am, then I will feel better about it all.

I’d also like to find a house/horse sitter so that Pete and I might get away from here.

The weather is such that it reminds me of being outside and on our horse trekking adventures. I remember the weather being like this in Colorado and Wyoming.

Well, today – Summer in the Park(s) is going well, some would say in spite of me. I am not seen as being a good leader and this pains me. Fortunately, it has an end point. Unfortunately, this is going to be at the summer’s end. We’ll go from this right into Alaska State Fair time. Orchestrating this is going to have its own challenges, for sure.

Now up until this point in time, in this dispatch, all I have done is bitch. I need right now to flip my attitude. Flipping my attitude, this is my term and I am sure that others are going to embrace it. It means to take a more positive stance. And actually doing this, now that I have a term for it, is fairly easy to do.

Here we go. Pete continues to support my efforts by being considerate and taking on project related tasks, even though a lot needs to be done here at the homestead.

And I have good friends who are also doing the same.

Right now I am eyeballing the bed. I look forward to going to sleep a bit too much.

166. 6/19/26: Summer Solstice, Here we Go