What I revised this afternoon and evening verifies this. I am most likely setting my expectations too high. I have my fingers crossed that tomorrow morning things will fall into place and that I am able to come up with a readable, engrossing, and compelling proposal.
The latter term, “compelling” – the editor at the University of Alaska Press said when I talked to him on the phone a few months ago that my book sounded – compelling. Oh oh, I thought, I am being tossed a cliché. Shall I reach out and catch it? I have not yet decided.
A neighbor once said to me that she wished that she could do as I’m doing and stay at home and write all day. Yes, this is what I do. But writing is not as easy an endeavor as she has been led to believe. Writing is ridiculously painstaking work and the odds of finding a publisher for a more lengthy work is decreasing by the day. And there are days, like today, when it seems (afterwards) like I have gotten nothing done.
I did get outside and do agility with Tyra and Raudi. Pete could not find the camera battery charger, so we were rushed for time before the battery died. Got a so-so video of Tyra. Didn’t get one at all of Raudi. And the weather’s turning bad again.
There was a high point in this day and it was that I had a really good ride on Raudi, on our trails. Beforehand, Pete fixed my right-side stirrup, which had somehow gotten squashed so I could not get my foot into it. We also fiddled a bit with my stirrup length. After, we prepared to go for a ride, me on Raudi and Pete on Hrimmi. Beforehand, I did some body work, alternating my moves with that of the horses. I circled my hands and feet and circled their hooves in a spiral before setting them down. This work and the fixes were most likely why Raudi was so forward. She moved out on the trails and I did not discourage this because this is the way she’s supposed to be.
So there is this and that to think about. I hope that my subconscious works some on this proposal and that tomorrow it lets the conscious know changes I should make. If this does not happen, I will be screwed. I wonder if it would be possible to fire the subconscious I have and hire another.
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