Posted – another list – flit coffee – again, today, looking at food and beverage lists and map lists. No, El does not make lists. This makes her listless. I don’t think that she’s restless. She is far more high energy than I ever knew her to be. I am really impressed. I can easily keep up, but most likely could not do this over the long haul.
So what will be on my next list? I will not make a list while I am here – no need to – all we are doing tomorrow is going for a hike. Then the day after is a travel day. I might make a list (again) of what I need to get done, and start to work on it, knocking things off of it.
Maybe I should make a list of things that are making me feel restless – ie, fear of the known, fear of the unknown, concern about the future, concern about the lack of a future, apprehension about transitions, apprehension about the lack of transitions. The list is seemingly endless.
Maybe I am feeling listless because the list of items on the mentioned list is limitless. To be fearful about the future is to be fearful about something that may or may not be. It is illusory. How does one then go about living for the moment? Or rather, how does one then go about living in the moment? I get there and then I remove myself – it’s like I take a huge unexplained leap back into the world of make believe.
Ahh, tomorrow is already a better day. How about that for a concluding sentence?
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